For The Heart Cries

  When suicide shockingly and suddenly enters your life with the loss of a loved one, your mind becomes trapped in a mournful moment in time - a moment of manic misery. You are overwhelmed with sadness and sorrow, with disbelief and dread. You cry tears that never dry. You have trouble focusing, thinking clearly and have sleepless nights - because you are lost in the thoughts of that moment in time. You try to purge your mind of that heartbreaking moment but you are never successful. You are wounded and scarred, doing your best to cope with the grief, loss and anger within you. You try to live with what has happened, to return to a sense of normalcy - but your mind keeps taking you back to the one you love and miss. And even without realizing it, you can dwell on that moment for hours, even days. You struggle with how people go on with their lives so easily, as you are entangled in a past moment that is forever in the present,  for that is where you live, that is where your th...

  "No matter how beautifully your life is arranged, no matter how lovingly you tend to it, it will not stay that way forever."  Kathryn Schulz There was a time when our lives were beautifully lived, embraced with tender and caring love,  full of simple joy and happiness. Our future bright with shared affection, promises and dreams. A normal day begins with its daily routine, then in an instant - it ends tragically. A sudden suicide, a devastating death and all was lost, all was gone - our lives forever changed, never the same again. Life after a loved one's suicide is heartbreaking, horrendous, horrifyingly hard. Nothing in our lives has prepared us for the shocking sadness and sorrow that overwhelmed us - lost within ourselves, consumed with profound feelings of hopelessness and helplessness. Although we are dearly embraced by our family and friends, we feel alone and abandoned as we mostly suffer in silence - at night we cry, not until we fall asleep but until the sun r...

 SLEEP DOESN'T HELP NOR DOES IT BRING PEACE OR COMFORT WHEN YOUR SOUL IS SHROUDED IN SADNESS AND SORROW - FROM THE LOSS OF LOVED ONE TO SUICIDE. fortheheartcries@gmail.com

  " How I wish, how I wish, how I wish you were here."  Pink Floyd The news of your loved one's suicide was sudden and shocking - the sadness and sorrow overwhelmingly painful, your entire being ached in agonizing anguish. And from that maddening moment, you have been trapped, held hostage, between disbelief and denial. In time, acceptance? So difficult, nearly impossible to achieve. As time passes, realization - awareness is where you finally find yourself, And ever since, how often have you wished that your loved one was here? The words, "I wish you were here," come to you as a gentle prayer from soul or a painful plea from your heart - in moments that can never be explained, as though you were touched by an angel. The suicide of a loved one, leaves you lost within yourself - surrounded in hopeless darkness. But as the months and years pass, light slowly shines through the darkness as you hold on the best you can. And as your life improves, there will always b...

When you have lost a loved one to suicide, you spend many weeks, months, even years, suffering in silence - unable to fully comprehend the tormenting tragedy. Suicide is death by sadness that leaves behind a trail of tears embedded in suffocating sorrow. Your heart bleeds, your soul cries and your mind is overwhelmed with questions that are never answered. Suicide is so savage, so devastating, that it rips people and families apart like no other tragedy and damages the psyche in ways that can never be repaired - life is never the same again. For loved ones, suicide is so unexpectedly final yet it has no ending. It steals life from the living as one struggles to make sense of the loss, tries to overcome feelings of guilt and anguish and the torturing thoughts of how the tragedy could have been prevented. And usually you must confront these thoughts alone in the sickening silence of seclusion and solitude. No death destroys the heart and soul of a loved one as does suicide - and no one i...

  Oh Anne, you said, "I love you" but you never said goodbye. Anne, we were so young and you were so beautiful, so full of grace and charm, so smart and sassy with a playful spirit - a woman perfectly radiant in your beauty, yet you were fragile, deceptively delicate. Anne, your smile was a false god, captivating and dazzling in its brilliance but discreetly deceiving - for hidden behind your seducing smile was the pain you suffered. On our last night together, you kissed me and whispered, "Tom. I love you."  The next day, Monday February 17th, you died by suicide. Anne, you said, "I love you" but you never said goodbye. Years have passed and you have always remained, absolutely adorable Anne. You are missed. You are loved. And late in the darkness of the night, when all is quiet, I can still hear you as you whisper, "Tom, I love you" - as love lies bleeding in my heart. Contact: fortheheartcries@gmail.com

  How do you forgive your loved one whose suicide caused you so much suffering sadness and sorrow? How does an eleven year old boy forgive his grandfather, his best friend and hero? On an early Thursday morning, the boy told his grandfather that he would see him after school - when he got home school that day, his grandfather had died by suicide. How does a young man of 23 forgive his girlfriend, the love of his life? They spent Valentine's Day Weekend together, days filled with love and laughter, of joyful happiness. On Monday afternoon all was lost - his girlfriend died by suicide. For months the small boy felt lost and abandoned, overwhelmed with sadness as he cried himself to sleep. At times he was angry and hated his grandfather. The young man, too, felt lost and abandoned. He was lifeless, his grief agonizingly painful. He thought his life was over, nothing to live for, a future leading nowhere. The small boy and young man were both emotional wrecks - how could they ever forg...